Before

I am her.
Questioning your mere existence
I have gotten lost in each moment
Analyzing every connection
I am losing sight of us.
We.
Conjoined through mental stimulation
Sucking ego dry and
Making desire whole.
Complete.
Serenity with each sentence.
Humility with your speech.
Yet, your fingers tip toe on my fortress
Attempting to still find a place to nestle.
You are an illusion.
A mirage.
False pretensions
Planted.
To Show me what it should really be like
After you.
And yet I am stuck
In the now
Enjoying every second
Feeling guilty.
That smiles never leave.
And I question your mere existence
Before me.
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